So, I have pretty much hit a brick wall in my life this week.
Things aren’t going the way I had planned for them too.
I’ve been waiting on notice back about my Illinois Grant so I can start college.
The Illinois Grant is the National Guard Grant that pays for my schooling. Tuition and books, all of that good stuff. I’ve recieved noticed that I’m getting paid to go to college. So, my Montgomery G.I. Bill is a go. 974 dollars a month, I get paid for college. Not bad, eh?
Still need to go take the placement test and get registered. But I’ve ran into a problem. My car is officially out of order. I’ve had my own car for for the past five years, and for the last six months. I haven’t had it. I’ve been letting my mother use it, because she didn’t have a car of her own. She despised my car, because she knows it has problems. But regardless, I love my RX-8. And now, I don’t even have a car to drive to drill. Let alone see my girlfriend or drive to college.
So, I’m at a stand-still in my life, and I’m not happy.
Currently, the only good thing going for me in my life is Hannah.
Her and I are almost on our six month anniversy, which is amazing for us.
I could not have asked for a better girlfriend. She’s my best friend, my rock, my world. And I could not ask for anyone better, to be spending my life with. But I feel like the worst boyfriend, as of late. Because without my car, seeing her becomes a hassle. I can’t afford to bribe my friend’s to drive the two hours to see her and drop me off. And to come get me. But I’m doing my best to make it work. Her and I both know this school year for both of us will be hell, but I know we’ll make it work.
I’m just trying to stay optimistic.
But when everything that goes wrong, does. I dwell on it.
If I don’t get into college, I strongly forsee me moving away from Springfield for a while. Either back home to Hamilton for a few months to get away from the stress that is living in this town. Or maybe up north to be closer to Hannah.
I know, for a fact.
That if my car was just mine again, and running.
I would, be, the happiest man alive again.
