I WAS TAGGED by SheTakesPictures
I have to tell you 5 things about myself you dont know.
1. The real reason I joined the military.
The real reason why I joined the military is because I honestly didn’t want to end up like a lot of my childhood friends. Going nowhere with their life, drug addicts, in jail, or dead. I had a simple childhood with really no ambition as I got older. I became that way because of my friends. I never strived for anything, never really cared about anyone but myself. Eightteen years old and many failed relationships later, I decided to dive into the deep in. Four years later, because of it, I got my diploma after dropping out, getting ready to GET PAID for going to college, in an extremely happy relationship, and I have pretty much everything I’ve ever wanted. Besides a house.
2. The real reason why I have so many friends.
The real reason why I have so many friends is because I feed off of different people. Normally, I had a bad habit of meeting someone new- and seeing what they had to offer me. As far as emotional or physical needs. I would seek something in one friend just to use someone else for something different. The reason I became an attention whore when I was younger was to bring people closer to me. As I’ve grown older, that whole mentality I had just died. I enjoy having people around, I strive on their company. Because without someone near me, I drive myself insane by flooding my head with questions and regrets.
3. I used to be a pathological lair.
I was extremely HORRIBLE about it till I hit the age of seventeen- realizing that it really got me nowhere. But it wasn’t until recent that I realized, that I made a lot of my lies growing up come true. I accomplished most of my goals in life, because of those dreams / lies. It’s wierd how that worked.
4. I care too much.
I honestly can’t tell you how many times I’ve been screwed over in the past. I’ve been cheated on and lied to, more than I can count on my fingers and toes combined. I’ve had my fair share of being a horrible boyfriend, I won’t lie about that. But for every girl I have been with, dated, talked to, or even glanced at. I’ve always had a part of me that still cared about them or their life. I’ve ruined multiple relationships at the expense of my friends. I have a tendency of finding someone I really liked just to let my friends be with that person. Mentally, I make up some reason to justify why I can’t be with the person I was with at the time. The reason for that, was because of girls I was with- always left me for my best friend or friend at that time. My friends growing up had a tendency of fucking the girl I was dating / broke up with- behind my back. Which, explains why I can’t be emotionally dependent on my significant other.
5. I’m EXTREMLY self concious.
Yeah, but isn’t everyone? My best friend growing up used to take pictures of me all the time, or film movies that I would act in. And if there was something I didn’t like or I thought was horrible to my appearance- I would make sure no one would ever see it. If I don’t feel comfortable about the way I look, I do my best to try and hide it. I’m not happy with the way I look. I never have been. Which is why I had that hardest time growing up, even getting a girlfriend. Most of the girls I was interested in, never thought I was attractive enough to be with them. At least I thought. I started to evolve my personality by being more open and more out going, to hide my insecurities. The only real justification I had to make myself feel better was the job I used to do. The job requirements were to be in shape, be out going, and be attractive. I had to deal with the public and try and manipulate / convince people to look into joining the military. It’s harder than you think, especially at a time of war.
People I should tag to do the same:
TrustMeILie
Blargplean
JewHatter
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DirtyButDreaming
OllyDotCom
ActionCalvin
SaturnineFilms
SydneyMeredith
Headless Rider
